As I stated in many of my videos, it was obvious that it was non-consensual. In one of them, I was asleep on the bed when my ex began touching me and doing things to me. At the end of the video, when I woke up, that was when that particular video stopped.
In a lot of my videos, I was either drugged or highly intoxicated. I couldn't hold my head up. My ex's genital parts were falling out of my mouth throughout the video. It was obvious that these were not consensual.
Some of the videos were taken by hidden cameras, and I could see where maybe Pornhub could make the argument that they didn't know those were non-consensual, because I was alert and awake in those, but had Pornhub reviewed the videos and taken the time to respond to me, even back in 2018, I wouldn't have suffered the trauma that I have over the last two to three years.
Having this disassociative condition as a result of initially finding those videos has damaged relationships that I can never take back. My son is now almost 17, and our relationship over the last two years has been very difficult because of this.
If my videos had never been uploaded to Pornhub, maybe they would have been shared somewhere else, but Pornhub is the leader in porn. That is where everyone goes. It's the first name you think of when you think of adult entertainment or to look at porn; it's Pornhub. Like the other witness testified, once the videos were up there, they were shared on numerous other websites that were connected to Pornhub.
Now they've been shared so many times that they're all over. Like I said, my videos had over eight million views. You cannot imagine the amount of fear that you have when that many people have seen non-consensual videos of you. Leaving the house was very hard for me.
I took a leave of absence from my job. I've been here over 16 years, and I have a perfect record. I worked very hard to build my professional reputation, and to have it all destroyed and for Pornhub to just not care when I contacted them multiple times.... It was not until I filed a civil suit pro se against them and that article came out in The New York Times that suddenly my content disappeared. Even after emailing their legal department.... Like I said, it was Tuesday of this week that they finally got back to me and told me they had finished reviewing it and that they would fingerprint it and remove it permanently from their sites.
That does nothing to take back the damage that's been done and how far the videos have been spread and downloaded.