Meegwetch. Thank you.
Good afternoon, ladies and gentlemen.
As you heard, my name is Leo Ashamock. Ashamock in Cree, means loon, the bird. I'm proud to have that name.
I'm a little bit nervous. This is the first time I've ever been in a setting like this, but I'll be okay.
I'll go right to what I've experienced myself and share that with you, to give a picture of the struggle I've had over the years. I'm going to be 65 in February of next year. I'm getting to my retirement. I've worked in the social field for quite some time. I've been a social counsellor in the community mental health program, and now with the Weeneebayko health services, where I come from in Fort Albany, Ontario.
I'm an Indian residential school survivor. From the time I was six years old, I spent seven years in St. Anne's Residential School, which you've probably heard about through the news. It was quite a horrific experience we all had in that school, with what came out of it. The perpetrators have all been dealt with through the courts and the settlement that was handed out.
The formative years that I had...just to share a bit of that, both my mom and dad went through a residential school themselves. They were impacted by their confinement to an institution. They suffered the losses that they had when they were separated from their own parents.
During those years, and then trying to raise a family with us, as siblings, we went through the same thing. We were broken. We were taken away from our home environment and really treated harshly in the environment of being in a residential school. That had its effects. There was no bonding. Nothing happened during those formative years when we really needed to have that close bonding with our parents, since we were torn away at such a tender age of six years old. That really impacted my upbringing also, as I went into my formative years, and then as a young adult and going through high school.
I did very well in school. I was always almost at the top of my class. But when I went to leave the residential school setting, it kind of was a release for me. I went and did what I had to do, without giving a second thought about trying to finish my education. I dropped out of school when I had the chance to at 16 years old. I was in grade 9 for three years, trying to pass my grade 9, which I never did. That was because I was already into alcohol and all that. That didn't go very well later, developing into my teenage years. I did a lot of crazy things, and the abuse of alcohol was a big part of it.
When I started to think about wanting to attach to somebody, my wife and I didn't get along, so I was very abusive. I was drinking away and drinking everything. That didn't help my situation at home at all, at my house, where I physically abused my children and my wife too. That's when it carried on to my wife and I being separated, and being separated from my own children.
When my son was 21 years old, he committed suicide. He killed himself. He shot himself with a 12-gauge shotgun. That's when I was told. One of the parents came up to me and said, “It's your fault, Leo. You did that to him.” I didn't believe that. I couldn't take that. It was too hard for me to accept. I tried to deny it. I tried my best, knowing damn well that it was partly my fault. The reason, I was told, was that my late son used to cry when he'd go to bed at night and say, “I wish my parents were together. Dad's not here. Mom's not here some of the time because she's out drinking.” That caused that, my son committing suicide.
Now I have learned better. I've helped myself. I've gone to treatment for my struggle with alcohol. I've become very different. I tried and worked every position that I could. I was a band manager. I became a council member on my band council. I became a deputy chief. When people were addressing me as chief when I came in earlier, it was kind of a compliment.
I pretty nearly got there, but I got myself in trouble again. I relapsed into being an alcoholic. But since then I have gotten back on track and I'm doing what I need to do and trying to help out in our community. I've been in the social counselling position for about 30 years now, since I've recovered and worked on myself. I try my best to help with the youth in our community.
I'll continue as quickly as I can.
I'm trying to get some help for the youth in our community. We have a lot of suicides. We had a completed suicide last week that we're just laying to rest, a young lad, a 13-year-old boy who committed suicide by hanging himself just last week. At the beginning of this year, we had three completed suicides, one every month in January, February, and March. We had three completed suicides of youth at the beginning of the year. It was very hard for the community. It's quite devastating for the people who have to go through that. I know how they feel. I can attest to that, because I went through that experience myself.
I'm optimistic, though, that things will get better. We're making every effort we can to help the youth that we have. We have to take a look at how we approach that. The focus is mostly on the youth, but it has to be on the nuclear family. The family has to be involved in the work that has to be carried out. That's where we need some help in providing resources to deal with that, dealing with the families. I mentioned it in my presentation. I mentioned the land-based programming that I'm really thinking about, getting the family to go together out in the bush and teaching them how to make a living, of being respectful of creation and mother earth, and the relationship they have with the Creator.
I'll end right there. Hopefully you can read in your document more about what has been outlined, and certainly learn more about what we actually need.
I know we tried to look for some resources for the proposal writing. We need help with that because we don't have the skills developed yet or the personnel to work on those kinds of things. There was a submission we made quite some time ago for a health policy adviser, but it has yet to be materialized and become a reality.
Thank you.