That's very kind. Don't be shy. Those are very good questions.
You're right to say that there are good days and bad days when you have Alzheimer's disease.
I want to cling to my basic values and to the things I don't want to go through. I don't want to lose my dignity and have to depend on everyone for my basic needs, by which I mean to eat, change my diaper and put me to bed, because I can no longer tell the difference between daytime, evening and night. Those are a few guideposts.
There is of course the risk of leaving too early, but although I love life, I'd rather leave a little bit early than a little bit late, when I can no longer make the decision and would be unable to give my consent.