I was personally involved with it in army equipment, but that could be another time.
I take uppers and downers during the day and I take pills to sleep at night. If I don't take them, I am not human...literally. I become an impossible entity because I'm either way up there or I'm way down there, and I become suicidal. So just like someone who has diabetes and has to take things every day, I take pills. And it took years for me to accept that. That keeps me reasonable. And PTSD never goes away.