Yes. It makes me feel that we've been neglectful in our duties as husbands. As I said, I'm at the age now where it's a major concern that my beautiful wife will have some benefit for taking care of me since I got out of the forces. It's not her fault that when we got married I was strong and everything else, but that through the last 17 years I have been aging probably at a rate that makes me more concerned now. It's shameful that I have to stand here and talk to people like you about trying to justify my finances after death. It's the principle of the law.
I don't want to start going into what I've seen, even last night, about how laws have been changed to accommodate. There was a law that was unreasonable. I'll mention it. The blood transfusion law was changed because of pressure from people. Since 1901, we haven't seen anything. I felt kind of insignificant with this whole thing.
Basically, how I feel is that she has been a good caregiver to not only me, but this community. She's well respected, and it's almost like an insult that I would leave this earth and not have anything to leave.