Last year, after years of struggling horribly with suicidal thoughts I didn't want in my head—I call them “intrusive thoughts”—and trying to beat them away, I felt as if I was getting closer and closer to a cliff. I talked to the therapist provided by VAC, and her solution was, “Just hide the knife you would use. If you haven't done it yet, you probably won't.” That would be an example of sanctuary trauma.
Two months after that happened, in July 2022, I attempted suicide. I saw it coming. I said, “I see it coming. I need some help.” I have never been back to that clinic. I called that clinic and asked to speak to a manager or something, in order to tell them about this experience, because this shouldn't happen to people. There was no exit interview, concern or follow-up. I was on my own. Thank God I have resources because of my show, but that's sanctuary trauma.
The breach of trust that creates.... I will never go back to that clinic, and that was after years of being there.