Thank you for the question.
I joined when I was 17. I was not even an adult. The army became my parent. The army became the family I needed, with the structure and all the guidance. When I got kicked out at 43 years old, I got kicked out without anything—nobody telling me where to go, what to do, how to behave. I was still waiting for my mission. I don't know if you can understand what I mean.