It would have been so much better. It's really hard to describe what happens when these letters come. Once you become a registered victim, they give you so much information. Sometimes I even had to tell them to stop. I don't want to know every time he gets out, because it just makes you so angry that he's out on unescorted temporary absence. It's too much information. I just needed to know this.... My life would have been so much better if I hadn't had to do this every single time, every six months. You have to go through all your files, you have to live all these emotions all over again.
It's not something I can deal with on a daily basis. If I started to think about this on a daily basis, I wouldn't be able to function. But once you have to do this and get back into it, it just takes its toll.