It's more about trying to clean up some of the language.
Essentially, when I testified the last time, I spoke about everything, but I wasn't as candid as I am now. I wish I had been, but it shows where I was at, I think, in my healing journey. The last time I was here, I had to be very surface-level.
Even with that said, I spoke about how we lose young girls from sport because.... If you are going to sexualize and objectify me out there, what do you think the 13-year-old cheering for me, whose body is changing and who already, through society, is being hit with all these things about how she's supposed to look and be.... Now, instead of commenting on my performance, you're commenting on my behind. Do you think that little girl wants to go and race in small shorts and a small crop top? No. I made comments about that.
What was received online.... I was basically told that I should have come here in my panties, in order to show you all what I'm really all about. How dare I show up here, dressed professionally, if I'm going to race in my skivvies out there? No one cared to ask me why I race in the kit I race in. Sometimes, that's all the sponsor gives you. Running does not pay the bills like other professional sports do. You are not going to upset your sponsors, especially as a female athlete. It was comments like that.
When I spoke about the harassment and abuse from some of my teammates and what it's generally like to be a female athlete out there, I was told what we all hear, always: If the statement had been made by a good-looking guy, I would have bent over and taken it. However, because it came from someone who wasn't attractive, of course I had an issue with it. It's the same stuff we hear whether we're in sport or not.
The fact is that I was brave enough, then, to come here and call out those behaviours. We didn't see anything happen from there. However, I was still expected to compete and try to make more national teams. Knowing this was how my testimony was received by athletes and the public at large was more than disheartening. To sit here and talk about the ageism and sexism I experienced.... I even said, in my 2016 testimony, that I would lose my funding the next day. I lost my funding the next day.
Where was Sport Canada? I am literally telling you that there are policies in place in my NSO saying I'm too old and that as a female, I have to hit this benchmark for competing. However, if I were 25 or male, the benchmark would have been here instead, and I could have kept my funding. The NSO, Athletics Canada...that was their policy. Sport Canada's response was, essentially, “They are the expert in your sport. We're not going to step in. We just give the funding based on their policies.”
I pled to you all. I said, “It can't be the athlete doing it.” Did anyone check whether Sport Canada changed that policy at Athletics Canada? No one here did. That policy eventually got softened, but that's because Peter Eriksson got pushed out. It had nothing to do with Sport Canada or this government changing anything.