Yes.
I was tortured for three days and had a bayonet stuck in my chin. Absolutely, yes. There was no doubt in my mind that they would have killed me if I went out on that deployment to the Gulf if I sailed that day. So I made a plea to the chaplain for compassionate release, and got one and was honourably released.
Since then, I've just been in survival. It's survival now.
I thought that when I came forward to VAC with my claims and my experiences, that might cue somebody to say, “Well, this is unacceptable. Do you know who did this? In the cases where you do know who did this, here are some options; or, would you like to proceed further?” That was never the case. I'm still confused about that, because I have spoken about these incidents, these experiences, in several arenas and it's never been brought up to me.
I still don't know where I go. Honestly, I wouldn't know where to go with it.