I completely respect how it might seem confusing. I'm confused myself. I have been searching for a reason as to why I did what I did. I, too, agree that had I had more respect for the document itself, this entire situation could have been avoided.
I believe part of your question was, “Did you attend some of the meetings of the pre-budget consultations with Mrs. Block?” They are quite numerous. They are quite long. I attended some of the meetings. I did not attend all of the meetings of the pre-budget consultations. Of course, those were public meetings.
As I tried to explain to Mr. Lukiwski--and I'm not sure if I can find the right words to appropriately describe my actions or my feelings--my actions were not based on a premeditated...trying to gain anything personally. My actions effectively were based on a lack of respect of confidentiality.