Thank you.
I want to start off by telling my story.
I joined the army at 16 in 2003. I was deployed to Bosnia as a peacekeeper. In 2008, I deployed to Kandahar as part of the battle group. When I returned home, I knew something was wrong and I sought out help. Over the next 10 years, I battled PTSD until I became suicidal in 2018, which led to a medical release in 2019.
Throughout the pandemic, I completed vocational rehabilitation through SISIP, which, by comparison, was very smooth and stress-free. I was able to complete a university certificate program in public policy in 2021. I left that program feeling confident about my recovery, although my psychologist and I were both keenly aware that my recovery was very fragile, and a serious setback could derail my progress. I continued to seek out further rehabilitation.
This year, I hoped to begin the application process for vocational rehabilitation, and applied to the program run by Canadian Veterans Vocational Rehabilitation Services. I went through the physical and cognitive assessments. Throughout the process, I made it clear to the case manager I was assigned to that I struggled with online learning during COVID and would like in-class learning. My psychologist had assessed that I would do better with part-time learning as opposed to full-time learning. I made it clear that my family had recently purchased a new house and would be moving from Brampton to Ottawa in the summer, and I requested a September start. I also requested to continue studies in public policy at the University of Ottawa or at Carleton, which I was assured would be considered. I scored very highly on the cognitive test, and there were a large number of public policy positions within the public service that appealed to me.
In April I was contacted by the CVVRS case manager, who blindsided me when she told me that the program I would be approved for was office administration at Algonquin College, full time, online and starting immediately.
Every request I had made for accommodation and every request my psychologist had made for accommodation was ignored. I was told that market research indicated that there were no policy positions available in Ottawa—if you can believe it—and that their decision was to formally recognize skills I already possessed, which would meet their policy of making me employable at 90% of my previous pay. They had no intention of supporting any more than that. She further informed me that if I did not agree to this program, I would be stripped of all of my benefits, including my medical pension, which I require to survive.
I had an immediate panic attack and had to end the phone call.
Over the next couple of days, I called and emailed the CVVRS case manager and my Veterans Affairs case manager, trying to figure out what my options were and to learn more about the policy and whether they knew what this situation was doing to my mental health.
My Veterans Affairs case manager broke the news to me that the policy, indeed, stated that if I refused to participate in the recommendation, I would be deemed as not participating in the rehab program and would be removed. This included my removal from the IRB. She told me that if I left the vocational program, I would likely not be accepted a second time if I applied.
I reached out for help and advice in one of the veterans' Facebook groups for medically released veterans. I told my story. I asked if anyone had gone through the process. I asked if they had any advice. I received over 40 comments, most of which were telling me to strap in, because it was about to get worse.
Other veterans expressed that the follow-ups, once they were enrolled in the program, caused a huge amount of stress, and that once they graduated, the priority became to get them employed and out the door.
I enrolled in the Algonquin program, because my hands were tied. Honestly, I didn't have anything against going to college; I was just not keen on being put in a position that would degrade my health.
I became suicidal again. I initiated appeals through Veterans Affairs, but I was told the process would take 12 weeks. I initiated another request for intervention through the veterans ombudsman. Thankfully, the ombudsman stepped in for an intervention, because the appeal reply I received from Veterans Affairs deemed suicide not an appropriate risk to remove me from the program.
Since then, I completed the move for my family. I have recovered again, and now working on further resilience training with my psychologist, so I can finally move on.
I initiated and received an access to information request, and received the reply this summer, which indeed showed that VAC had received the recommendations from my psychologist, and ignored them. I had asked my psychologist if she had any information on this new provider. In a call with my case manager from Veterans Affairs last month, she told me about the new contract, and that her role in my rehabilitation would be lessened.